Underneath

My face is a wall

You see the fractions of glass

That make up my thoughts

Nothing refrained

The sadness that makes up my pain

The anger, the shame,

manipulation for gain,

idolatry, lust, all labor in vain

 

Drink it away

Bottles hold my pain

The cigarette smiles keep me insane

Addictions, convictions

Silence screams my name

It’s so hard to stand up and break the machine

 

But I swear, this isn’t me

And I know, Your love’s unfailing

Are you aware of what’s hidden underneath?

 

What’s hidden underneath?

What can you see?

Your eyes don’t sleep

What’s buried underneath

When you look inside of me?

But can you see

the spaces in-between?

To save what’s left of me

From what’s hidden underneath?

 

My heart is a hole

Can’t give up or gain the control

Praying within, don’t know where to end or begin

Dissension, and questions

Are there reasons for seasons? Should I

run away or face and deny all my demons?

 

‘Cause I swear, this isn’t me

And I know, Your love’s unfailing

Are you aware of what’s hidden underneath?

 

What’s hidden underneath?

What can you see?

Your eyes don’t sleep

What’s buried underneath

When you look inside of me?

But can you see

the spaces in-between?

To save what’s left of me

From what’s hidden underneath? 

(‘Cause I swear, this isn’t me, 

and I know your love’s unfailing)